Nak khawin? Tak layak!

Now dah end of October and tup tap tup tap nanti tahu2 je kita semua dah melangkah ke tahun 2012. Sometimes macam tak percaya yang kita dah semakin dewasa. To be specific can't believe that i'm getting old!! 7 signs of ageing??? Damn. Time passes by so quickly kann. And ramai lah member2 ku yang telah dan akan menamatkan zaman bujang mereka. Wow. . . serious now rasa sangat tua. And to make things worst when peeps start to ask me 'The' question,

"Hang bila nak khawin ni Ain?"

And i was like, what the. . . .?

Now this is serious. I'm turning 24 lah. Tak macam awal sangat to talk about khawin ke? Or memang this is the time to talk about it? Anyway, for me to think about marriage first i need to consider all these. . . 

Am i ready physically and mentally to step into marriage life?

ans: errr. . . khawin sebab boleh dapat i-pad as hantaran. Yeay!!

Dah khawin nanti nak bagi hubby makan pe?

ans: hmm. . .aku pandai masak megi okay. Tak pun makan kt luar je hari2. Kata hubby engineer.

Hidup berumah-tangga kena saling menghormati dan bertolak-ansur

ans: Dear ni. . lambat sangat la angkat phone. Menci ah. Huh.

Sejuk je hati suami bila bangun pagi2 breakfast and baju kerja dah tersedia

ans: Goodmorning sayang! Morning? Its already 2pm dear. Oopss!

Based on few things above. I'm so totally not ready to get married yet. No sir!

Its Never 'OK'

Few have asked,


"Are you okay dear?"
"Ain ok ke?"
"Weyh....pe cerr ko skg? de problem ke?" 
"Darl..is something bothering you?"


And bila ditanya. . . mana korang semua dapat idea yang aku tak okay ni? Mereka seraya berkata,


"BLOG!"


Maka hilai tawa ku terus menyusuli statement diorang. Okay fine. I admit that lately i've been producing such 'dramatic posts'. But is it necessary mean that something is 'wrong' with my life? I guess their answers is, 


"YES!" 


Again,


"Hahahahahaha. . . . "


Seriously guys? Memang emo and dramatic posts can only be posted by those who have 'something wrong' in their life je ke?


"YES!"


Okay. . . okay. Fine. Something is definitely 'wrong' in my life and i just don't know what it is. Or actually. . . i refused to know. Okbai.

p/s: 'moron' is certainly not you guys dearest friends :)

a Time is all we need

I was a given a time to think
About us
But i do not know what to think about
Maybe because there are too much to think about
Or maybe there is nothing to be think of
But i took the time to reflect back on
What we did
Words we said
Places we visited
Pictures we took
and stories we shared
And i found myself smiling and crying while doing so
I guess. . . i got the answer.


I am happy when i'm with you
But i also cried because of you
Well this is what i called a relationship
There are up and down
happy and sad
whispering and shouting
And most importantly. . .
There are times when we did something wrong
We realized that we are wrong
We regret it 
Try out very best to become a better person
and also time for us to give our forgiveness to each other
Let us do that. . shall we?

Let me be ME

Having a weird wish 
Where i wish im not me
I wish i can start a new life as a different person
As a strangers to the world
Where non will know me
Not bounded to history
And nobody will be judging
No more tears to be pour on
No more me..


Let me live in this world freely 
Passes by the day with new feelings everyday
Without having any bad day
Or moody day and unlucky day
Just a happy day every single day
But what kind of life would that be
Life without a lesson and experience
A life without being me
Who am i?

Gonna Kick Some. . .

It seems funny and stupid now when i think back about those "pms-emotional-overreacted" time. . and honestly. . i'm also embarrassed of myself for letting nonsense come and interfere in my cheerful life. And i was. . 

"What the Gucci ain!. Come on gal. You are so much damn stronger than this. Let those crap find their way out of your life and stay outside."

And thus. . status on fb was updated. .

Its definitely a new courage in me. Watch out b*****s!!

"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile."

  My LOVE one




My dearest FRIENDS
And most importantly my irreplaceable FAMILY 

I'm totally with u gal. . .

Alone is better than fake

Life is a masquerade

Since everybody is a good pretender
Then should i be one too?
Giving a fake smile. . .
And insincere hello. . .
And behind everybody's back. . .
Start to talk about others.


The talking would never end
Talk about the enemy
Talk about strangers
Talk about colleague
And even worst. . .
Talk about own friends
Or maybe there isn't any real friend in this world.


Well, i don't think i can take part in this kind of life
Sorry if i'm not a good pretender
Sorry if i'm not a great actress
Sorry if i'm not a backstabber
I'm just not a pretender nor a hypocrite
and i refused to be you
because i'm a much better person than you are.

evolving to butterfly

Weird isn't it

I mean these feelings of ours

Sometimes happy

Sometimes sad

Sometimes determine

Sometimes confused

Sometimes forgivable

Sometimes revengefull

Sometimes concern

Sometimes ignoring

Sometimes loving

Sometimes hating

Sometimes lovable

Sometimes over protective

Still. . No matter what we felt, it is a gift to us.

So that we can feel things, experienced even the worst and help us to grow up.

At least. . that's what i think.

Cause these that helped me to grow up.

i want what i need

We always wanted those that we don’t need

We wish for everything that we don’t required

We aim too high that we missed those on the ground

We are too busy looking around and mislooked what's infront

We are mad cause nobody's listening while we are too busy talking and refused to listen

We accused others to be blind while we kept our eyes and heart closed from seeing what's around us.

Now lets pray to get what we really need

Lets wish for everything that we required only

Lets begin from the very bottom and then aim high as we climbed further

Cherish what's in front of us and only then seek around as there are too much to be wasted

Its time to let others to talk and learn to be a good listener cause we were given two ears and a mouth so that we can listen twice as much as we talk

  Open up our eyes and heart cause there are too much to be looked at and grateful for

And thank Allah for all His gifts and blessings to us

The ungrateful slave…

(Alhamdulillah…)