L O V E is unending legacy

just now i saw two cats kissing before my eyes.. i guess they were kissing but no tongue what so ever..duhh of course!haha..anyways, it remind me of love. isn't love is such a beautiful thing? all living creatures need love.. even the animals.. but sometimes love makes people blind and narrow their views of life.. and i think that is so sad. u know..i mean when people can kill others for love or if u ever heard people actually rape their love ones; lovers, sisters.. i guess we can classified those under sex desire not love..

by the way, since i was lil girl i always wanted to fall in love. but not any kind of love.. im looking for the perfect love with the perfect guy.. im a bit demand i guess but it was the truth.. all my life i've seek for my perfect mate. and the kind of guy that so called 'perfect' is the one that is handsome, nice to see nice to hold (don't have any idea what that supposed to mean :p), know how to handle me and my feelings, a romantic person with at least a box of chocolate and rose every time we went out for a date (yup..too much huh? haha..this is me..), he must never raise his voice on me and most importantly.. rich!! hehe..

so as time passes by i still cant find my perfect love.. i guess im kinda expected it cause where exactly in this world can i ever find this kind of guy?? so..time after time i started to grow up.. forgetting my dream.. excepting the truth of life that all man sucks (no offense) and then...

one day.. HE showed up! i could never imagine i would actually find a guy like him.. maybe he wasn't that mouth watering kind of guy but he is indeed have a nice look. and the thing i love the most that he have sooo much love to pour.. so i guess God had finally heard my prayers.. and blessed me with him.. so now he is my bf.. the one and only.. who always here for me whenever i need him.. too nice that he always make me feel grateful every single second of my life.. love u dear..

bored to death~

OMG!!
im seriously bored now like i could kill myself just to have fun! i really hate when im being left alone in this room to study all by myself. im not that strong okay..i just cant stay focus if i study alone. especially during this time of the week. u know.. its friday.. peeps hanging out with their girlfriends or went for an evening walk with their love ones. and im supposed to study!? that would be such a ridiculous thing to do! haih...life damn boring if u r alone. at least u should have a pet to accompany u. so lets have hamsters!! uhuu...i love those cute cuddly lil thinggy.. yup! this is exactly what im gonna do during this lloooooooonnnnnnggggg semester break!! gonna have a pet :))

kau harus sedar

hidup kat dunia nie sementara je

aku takkan di sini selamanya

rugi jika sendiri

hanyut jika ku sendiri

sunyinya hidup sendirian

aku perlukan teman

yang memahami segalanya

yang sedar tentang kewujudanku

tak perlu lagi mereka2 yang hanya tau mensia2kan kehadiran aku

tapi siapa?

sampai saat ini aku tak pasti

samaada aku mampu berkata aku telah berjumpa dgnnya

atau mungkin aku takkan dpt jumpa buat selamanya?

haih..aku tak tau

takkan ada jawapan itu dengan aku

mungkin lagi elok andai aku tak tau jawapannya

tak pasti samaada aku nk tau

sebab takut nanti ia tak seperti yang aku harapkan

dan aku terus akan tangisi

kesunyian diri ini

aku

sendiri

im feeling sleepy

tomorrow is my inorganic test

but im so damn sleepy that i never felt this kind of sleepy in my life

and now im even talking crap in my blog..damn

lately i just cant focus anymore

maybe because of that stupid guy

why the hell actually everytime i wanted to forget about him

he always shows up in my head...mind...thoughts??

sometimes i just feel like i wanna forget everything

i dont wanna wake up the next morning in my bed as myself

i wish i could be someone else the next day

so that i will be able to erase him for my head...damn

can i just get back to study now

tomorrow is such a big day fara..

wake up!!!!

what if

what if i said that im not happy with what i already have?

would that mean that im not a grateful person?

hmm...its hard you know to pretend as if im happy

but the truth that im not.

if only i can let out all the feelings and thoughts in my heart.

tapi aku tao aku kena jage banyak hati...

so all i can do is pretend..is that wrong???

haihh..

OMG!!!!

haish..

hari nie sgt lah restless!

rase da tido almost 12jam tp still restless. apsal ntah.

plus sok de test lagi..

emosi pun rase terganggu..