Hurt soooo much!!

Tak pernah hadir

Now rasa sangat nak menjerit sekuat hati. Like seriously I NEED it. Why everytime I would like to change my mind you would screw it up. Dah banyak kali kot. I miss my ocean. Terasa nak drive pergi laut sekarang jugak!!! The moment I'm alone and feel damn lonely and need you the most, you would immediately change my mind. Why can't you just be here. Why can't you. (Saat ini butiran air dah bertukar menjadi terusan yg mengalir tanpa henti membasahi pipi ini). Dan aku masih sendiri. Sebab engkau tak pernah mengerti apa yg aku ingini. Kita tak mungkin bersama lagi. Tidak kini.

No where to go

Before this or now, later. . .whenever it is. It just does not bring any difference. I can't stop now. I've been drifted away too far til there's no longer way to turn back. Until that day comes, I'll still be here. Though I'm invisible, I'll always be here. Though you refuse to see me, I am here. Never was been far away from your heart. Since that day..

Maybe I'm Still. . .

What am I thinking?? Ya Allah. I'm so lost and don't know what to do. I broke so many hearts and bring so many tears to this world. I don't deserve to be happy. How could I? While others suffer because of me. I'm too selfish and ignorant. I'm sorry. I have second thought today. But I'm afraid to do anything about it. To be honest, I don't know if I can do anything about it. My heart and brain just refuse to co-operate.

"Don’t cry when the sun is gone, because the tears won’t let you see the stars." - Violeta Parra

2-2-2012

Its a second day of February. And I'm a day for being 24th. Its a bit awkward for celebrating my birthday 'alone'. Tak ingat dah bila kali terakhir. Atau mungkin, tak pernah? Ke pernah? Whatever la. To tell ya the truth, I expected yesterday to be pretty lame and nasty. But it turned out to be fine.

Therefore, I'm thankful for the happiness I still have. Despite of everything that happened, semalam kira okay la. Masih mampu nk mengukir senyuman di bibir. Seronok bila kita tahu dalam dunia ni kita tak sendirian. Dan masih ada teman yg sudi buat kita tersenyum. Thank you so much.

"The happiest feeling in the world is by making others happy"

Happy Birthday dear missy. You know what should you do on your birthday? Be wiser, be stronger, grow up, wipe away those tears, put up a happy smile and cherish all that you already have. Be thankful will you.